Eating...

I'm eating less.
A lot less.
I bet no one's noticed, but I don't really want them to.
I'm writing it here because I need to put it somewhere...
Cereal...
That's what I've told everyone I'm eating.
I'm not telling them that its only once or twice a day...
I feel awful.
I weighed myself yesterday...
The number was too high.
I almost weigh more than my mom...
The thought of that makes me sick to my stomach and I want to vomit...
But I can't.
I need to eat...
I can't though...
That makes the knot in my stomach bigger...
I'm awful....